
beauty and the bitch. lol
i mean she is the beauty and im the bitch
i can finally sit now and post a proper one. school starting in a few days time ): but i had lotsa fun during this holidays. ditched work again and again for times. lol went clarke quay on christmas eve. rot around on christmas. 26 dec, woke up damn freaking early like 5.45 to go orchard for work. 27dec, today working was quite terrible when just opened. cause nobody to attend to. make me feel wanna sleep while standing. lunch alone, and someone laughed at me and said that im a LONER. im not okay! but well, sales was not that bad actually. and got a piece of chocolate from yeti. dinner at tampines with girlfriend. walked and go home. girlfriend throw tantrum again. and cause i gave attitude? LOL reached home 9 plus and then came over to grandma's. tomorrow and saturday, dont know how to spend.
want you to know. when your finger moves around the "pad" my heart starts to wonder. wondering bout' the content, who's the one. if i can stop my fingers from moving, can you? will you? not just in front of me. but behind me too. just when i see that folder of "****** & ****", i cant stop asking myself that, "is your heart totally mine?". i FEEL that i love too much till i dont even know how to be real angry. this is what i mean when i said, "if i fall for someone, i can be very silly" sometimes your words really hurt me deep inside. make me wanna cry, wanna die. but i know some of them doesnt meant in from your heart. i feel that i doesnt know you well enough to give you the best i can. but to think of the happy side, your face will make me feel like pinching it HARD. and seeing your kuku pattern, makes me wanna hug you TIGHT. the happily walking around. the lunchS & dinnerS. sweet words :D i think both the happy and sad can be tally. i think it balanced up. im still happy that i have you.
i love you, very much.
wanna hold you in my arms when you cry, <3
hush darling. always here for you :)